We serve a perfect and wonderful God. His timing is perfect. Does His timing always feel like the right time? No. Definitely not. Does His timing sometimes feel like the most imperfect time ever? Yes. Absolutely. It is in these times when it feels like the worst timing ever that I feel I see more clearly His plan for my life. I see the ‘why’ behind the waiting. I see the beauty in the patience. And in these moments, I am grateful. Grateful for the long nights. Grateful for the hard conversations. Grateful for the heartache. Grateful for the anger and sadness. Grateful for the joy and the laughter. Grateful for the journey I have been on up until this moment.
But, how often after one of these moments, do we long for the next thing on our list that He has not given an answer on yet? How quickly we forget how amazing it is when we wait for His perfect timing. I am in such a season right now. I feel so unbelievably blessed to be where I am in life. I love the adventure I am on relationally and spiritually and physically, and yet I still long for the next thing. The next step.
I will turn 30 this summer. 30!! Oh goodness… how did I get here so quickly? As I look back over the almost 30 years of my life, I see so many moments where I rushed God’s timing and moments where I waited. All of those moments brought me to where I am today and I could not be more grateful. As I enter into this summer with my 320 Ranch family and prepare for entering into another decade, I am reminded of how precious time is. Many prayers for patience in this season of wishing for what I do not yet have and gratitude for what I DO have.
I did not get this far in life on my own. It is only be God’s grace that I am where I am today and that I am the woman I am today. To turn 30 in the majestic mountains of Montana surrounded by incredible people is something I could not have imagined even a year ago. Tomorrow is not guaranteed and this moment will soon be a memory. I pray that I continue to reach for new adventures and never let the longing for time to pass more quickly distract me from living right here… in the moment.
“Yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.”
Don’t let life pass you by while you sit there wishing for God to speed up or slow down. Our life is short… make the most of it!
I love you all so dearly!
Your Fearless Wanderer