I have a dream… a big dream. I also have a fear… a big fear. But, let’s start with the dream!!
My dream is to own a space where people from all over the world can come to be refreshed and rejuvenated, but most of all, restored. Welcome to…
Restoration Bed & Breakfast
restoring that which is lost, unwanted, and forgotten
You guys, I dream about this place all the time. Last night I was up past midnight just lying awake imagining all the wonderful things about this home. It will be an old style home (either farm house or Victorian) with a huge front and back porch. It will be by the water. The water is so cleansing!! It will have five rooms for guests, a quaint little sun room, an elegant staircase, a spacious dining room, and a state of the art kitchen. And lastly, it will have a spacious backyard that overlooks the expanse of the ocean where you can sit and watch the tide come in and the sun set.
I can’t wait to decorate every inch of this incredible home! I love taking old and unwanted items and restoring them to their once beautiful selves.
I want this place to be used by my family for reunions or quiet escapes from reality. I want friends to use this place to dream, and create, and reflect. Now, I know, this sounds like a dream… no, like an unrealistic ideal of a business, but I cannot get this beautiful dream out of my heart. If you have known me for any amount of time over the last six months, you will know that I have been pursing a career with Chick-fil-A. I love this company and stand whole heartedly behind their mission and purpose. The more I have pursed this career though, the more I have realized – I am not built for fast food. As much as I love CFA and every part of me fits their mission, my heart longs for a slower paced business. I have always known I would own my own business in some regard and for the last several months I truly believed that would be owning my own CFA store. But when the realization hit me that I was not created to push cars through drive-thru at 30 second intervals, I knew that I would absolutely own my own business it would just be one that has been tucked away in my heart for many years and not CFA.
Ever since college, I have had this crazy idea of one day... maybe... possibly owning my own café or bakery or B&B, but it always felt like this crazy idea. I never thought I would actual make this dream a goal! Which, in the words of Rachel Hollis, is, “a dream with it’s work boots on”. I love this imagery! My dream finally has feet and not only that, feet with steel-toed boots on, ready to work until this dream is a reality!
Now onto my big fear… a fear of failure.… You know what, I just wrote out an entire paragraph about failure and then deleted it… and I don’t believe failure is what my fear is… my fear is I am not or don’t have enough. I fear I don’t have enough knowledge for this dream. I don’t have enough money for this dream. I am not persistent enough for this dream. I am not career oriented enough for this dream. Yes… THAT is my fear. You know what, to hell with that fear! Satan can have it back! I AM enough! This dream was not placed in my heart from my own mind, this dream was placed in my heart by the Creator of the universe who is and always will be MORE than enough! He is my source of strength and money and resources and persistence! “God doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called!” Amen!
Wow, this post became way more passionate than I had planned it to be, but I am perfectly ok with that. Writing always helps my heart dream, plan, and prepare. Writing helps me process what my mind is telling my heart. Now, putting my heart's thinking out in the world… that can be a little frightening. I was listening to a podcast today that said, ‘be brave enough to put something out into the universe that could possible be critiqued’. We will never know where our words and dreams will go if we never let the world have them. I am so thankful for those of you that read what I write. I know I have just a small following, but that doesn’t even matter, because if just one person reads my writing and is inspired or encouraged, than I am happy.
One day soon I will have my beloved Bed and Breakfast and you all will be the first to know about it! I love you all dearly!
Live fearlessly my darlings!