Make sure to check out Part 1 and Part 2 before reading if you haven't already caught up on our love story!
So many emotions ran through my heart as Jaymes walked up. How do you greet someone you feel you fully know and yet barely know? Someone who you've been dating for the past few months and yet have never seen in person? I truly didn't know what to think, or feel, or even say. I'm pretty sure all I did was squeal a "Hiiiiiii!!!" and run into his arms as he walked into the house. He pulled me in and before he said anything, he kissed me. It wasn't a crazy passionate kiss, but it was the most surreal kiss I have ever been given! Everything from the past four months of getting to know this man crashed into my heart and my head spun as I tried to wrap my heart around this situation. He stepped back and said, "Hi!" and all I could say was "You're so tall!" I know, so romantic!
That evening was filled with much talking, making out, and stopping to just watch the other one, realizing we were finally in the same room after four months of messages, phone calls, and FaceTime dates. It was the best night and I don't think I have ever felt so happy, confident, or in love in my whole life. This man was even more amazing in person and being able to finally be in his arms was a feeling I didn't even know existed.
As a little girl, I fully believed in true love. I believed in romance. I believed in soul mates. But, as I grew up and watched relationships around me struggle and fall apart, I began to lose faith that those beliefs, weren't real. I wanted so badly to believe they were real, but my heart was too guarded to allow those thoughts in... until Jaymes. I have never had anyone in my life complete me like he does. Someone whose strengths compliment my weaknesses and visa versa. I KNEW when I decided to move that he was my person and I was going to do everything in my power to get to him, if that isn't a sign of true love, I don't know what is! The more time I spend with Jaymes, the more those beliefs of a little girl are coming back into focus. I firmly believe God has perfectly designed people for one another and when those people meet, there is a connection like none other.
I have now been in North Carolina for the past eight months and even though I miss Montana very much, I am more grateful now than I have been in years. My heart feels at home with Jaymes and these last eight months feel like a dream. We have spent hours talking and cooking together. We have gone on hikes and countless runs to the grocery store. We have watched many movies and shows and have been able to do life together... finally. For four months, I dreamt of what doing life with this man would be like. All I wanted when I decided to move to NC was to be present with him. To do the day to day activities side by side and that is exactly what we have been able to do.
We got into our first fight back in the fall and I learned then what an incredibly patient and gentle man Jaymes truly is. It was over a movie we had watched and I was very passionate about my stance on the movie when it finished. I was talking so much, I wasn't listening, and Jaymes never once raised his voice at me or got in my face about it. When he finally spoke to me, it was with so much control and firmness, but also with so much grace. I had never had a significant other handle an argument this way and it truly caught me off guard. I knew then this man could handle all of me, but I also knew then that this was a man I was going to willing work very hard to be an amazing woman for. I grew up being taught "Don't look for the right man, become the right woman" and I don't believe that stops when you finally do meet the "right" man. I long to be the best version of myself for him every day. To show in our relationship ready to serve and love him with all my heart.
Over Christmas, Jaymes was able to go on leave for a few weeks and it gave us so much more time together than just weekends. It was wonderful and I loved every second of it! During these weeks, something had come up that set me off (it had nothing to do with Jaymes). I was so angry and defensive when I got off the phone from this conversation that had gotten me worked up. I came out into the living room where Jaymes was and was venting and my fists were clenched and I know I probably wasn't making much sense. Jaymes tried to talk me down, but it wasn't really working (I am a very emotional person if you haven't already figured that out :P). So, instead of continuing to try and talk me down, he very gently came over to me, wrapped me in his arms and began to slow dance with me to the Frank Sinatra song that was playing. We slow danced for a few moments and then he kissed my head. I looked up at him and he kissed me and said, "Feel better now?" (swoon) Ummmm, YES I feel better! It truly was a moment that will forever be locked in my heart and a moment that showed just how much this man loves me and understands me better than I know myself.
This new year has been interesting with new challenges being handed to us. So far this year, I have seen Jaymes for two weekends and that's it. There have been trainings and classes he's had to go to for the Army and they take away from our time together. But, this time apart has only strengthened my love for this incredible man. When he comes home, I am always more in love with him than when he left. I am so thankful for starting our relationship through communication because it gave us such a good foundation for weeks and months like these. If you haven't already gathered from this very emotional post, I am in awe of God's hand in our relationship. I could never have dreamed up a man like Jaymes. He is so many things I was looking for and so many things I didn't know I needed.
We celebrated one year together this month and I truly cannot wait for the months and years to come. God is so sweet to us and He 10000% wants what is best for us. I know this first hand and am living proof that when we surrender our whole lives to Him with open hands, He will bless us above and beyond what we could ever think or imagine! This might be the end of this little Love Story series on my blog, but it is just the beginning of our true love story and I cannot wait to see what is written next.
Thank you for joining us on this adventure and, as I conclude, I'd ask that you'd pray for us as we walk into the future together. Life is full of unknowns, but knowing I have all of you with me and knowing I'm in the hands of the One who knows all, gives me confidence that we will not only survive life together, but thrive as a couple.
All my love to all of you!
Your Fearless Wanderer